First let me say I'm not a fatalist in the truest sense of the word. yes, I do believe in a God who knows everything. However, I also believe that God, despite knowing my thoughts and actions before I think and do them, is still gracious to allow me to think and act of my own volition. That said, I try my very best to choose to allow this same God who knokws everything to make my decisions for me. After all, if He knows everything, would it not be the smartest thing to give Him all the decision-making power?
Consequently, it follows that MOST things in life are pre-ordained. I saw MOST because I am an imperfect creature and, as such, will often fail at making decisions consistent with God's will. Regardless, I still think everything happens for a reason.
So it is I report on a very unfortunate snag in my sound design project. Over the past several weeks, my MBP display has occasionally flickered, lost resolution, or displayed random trash. I didn't think anything of it because this coincided with heavy use of Reason and I just thought maybe the software was just graphics-intensive enough that it caused problems. Indeed, the problem seemed to go away with a restart if it didn't go away on its own.
So Tuesday night (while working on the blog, ironically) the situation severely deteriorated--so much so that I couldn't restart the machine without a kernel panic.
This all happened while visiting relatives just north of Nashville. Meanwhile, I have a New Year's gig to get ready for and about 7 hours of travel time just to get home. At this point all I can think of is how I'm going to make it home, load my gear, make it in time to set up, and still have time to program my backup computer, an old iBook G4 with barely enough RAM to boot up let alone get through a gig running Logic 7 in my feeble attempt to replace Mainstage just for one gig!
My loving wife, totally sympathetic to my cause, senses and shares my low esteem. She helps me get to the nearest Mac service center where they tell me there's nothing they can do but will let me know ASAP what my options are. Best case scenario is there is a faulty video chipset that Apple will replace at little or no cost. Worst case scenario is they won't and will replace the entire logic board for the cost of a new computer (consistent with how Apple typically does business--I know this). Despite my love for Apple products, this is a point of contention and resentment. Replacing the computer is not an option.
If I may digress for a moment, I feel the need to outline my history with Apple computers. I bought my iBook G4 (Arctic white) when I finally got sick of PC's--especially faulty, unreliable ones. After getting the iBook, I loaded it up with Finale, MasterTracks Pro, and Logic Pro 7 later on. Things were great for a long time aside from some latency problems in Logic. Big deal, just turn off most of the FX plugins! Time passes. I notice that performance is tapering off and the iBook is not handling well with my hardware. One day I start getting really bizarre performance, random freezes/crashes, and eventually nothing. Turns out solder had broken away from the logic board. I'm covered under Applecare, so I take it in. Apple replaces the logic board AND the battery after a recall notice. I'm thoroughly pleased. But I'm still having problems with hardware as well as latency issues. I hang on at my wife's insistence. And then Apple released Logic Studio 8 (with Mainstage). I was thrilled until I figured out none of it would run on the iBook. That was the final nail in the coffin.
I bought the MBP specifically for Logic 8/Mainstage. I continued with Finale upgrades. I installed Absynth. Times were good. However, dragging the MBP to work/gigs/rehearsals, to living in a hotel room for 2 1/2 months after the bottom fell out of the economy, to having 2 small kids crawling all over me and the MBP all took their toll and I ended up with a busted display. By tyhis point the warranty is expired as would have Applecare even if I'd bothered to purchase it. I have the display replaced along with other repairs which cost as much as a new MBP, but I really don't want to deal with software re-authorization on a new machine. Replacing the computer is not an option!
This wouldn't be the first time I've had to deal with "the system." Remember the 2 small children? The tip of the iBook charger broke off inside the power supply. We took it to the nearest Apple Store. They say "We can fix it, but we'll have to replace the entire logic board for the cost of a new computer." What??? We get a friend of ours (not affiliated with Apple) to order a replacement power supply and install it right before buying a new charger. For a total cost of under $100, we have an iBook that runs practically like new!
Suffice it to say the honeymoon is over.
What was I originally writing about? Oh yeah, things happen for a reason.
I make peace with the fact I'll need to reprogram my backup machine for the gig. I email our guitarist to find out when setup time is and check for replies every few hours. Nothing. I get tired of waiting so I ask my wife to give him a call for me. Just as she picks up her cell, the drummer rings in. Turns out he wants to know if she has any photos of the band we can use for a press release related to an upcoming gig in February. It turns out that the New Year's gig got cancelled LAST WEEK!!! I had no idea. No one told me. We decide to stay in Nashville one more night.
Everything happens for a reason. I didn't know the venue had cancelled on us. I was making plans to be there. Now I no longer have the pressure of traveling for an entire day for a gig. I don't have to worry about finding a spare computer run my rig. I don't have to worry about the quality of sound suffering in performance nor the embarrassment arising from an unreliable system--whether it's the MBP crashing or trying to recover the iBook in the middle of a set (or song). Ugh... I need some good samplers...
Now I'm on my way home to the Mississippi Delta minus my best computer. I'm feeling badly bruised, but certainly not defeated. The sound design project will NOT be put on hold. It just needs a temporary change of direction, a momentary detour.
I still have the DX7 and an unused RAM4 cartridge. This just gives me an opportunity to write some DX programs to sample later. That and I backed up my work offsite before my MBP completely died, so there's still a chance I can work on the project on a spare computer (we'll see: I don't give up easily).
There is time.
I'll let you know how DX programming goes!
And Happy New Year!